"Be the change you wish to see in the world....."
Sadhana is a sanskrit word that means a deeply devoted and focused practice with a singular goal. Geeta Iyengar describes Sadhana as an instrument or a prop that helps us to aim at our goal. If our goal is yoga, Self-realization, we use the props of our body and mind to reach our soul.
My yoga practice began with a striking moment after journeying to Tokyo, Japan after college. Alone in a foreign country in an empty room I asked myself for the first time, "Who am I really?" and "Why am I here?" This moment lead to a series of transformational changes including giving up a bulimic lifestyle and starting to nourish myself with food.
From there, I taught kindergarten at an International school in Japan. I got a Masters Degree in International Agricultural Development at U.C. Davis. I worked on a sustainable farm and learned to drive a tractor. I was a political organizer for affordable health care across the country. And, I worked as a communications consultant for the public health department in the East Bay supporting school-based teen clinics which offer medical and psychological services. Tired of living on nothing in the San Francisco Bay Area, I joined the (first) dot.com boom and somehow ended up a in marketing for a large financial services firm.
I have two professional themes throughout my life: teaching and marketing. They are not really no dissimilar. They both involve human psychology. How do I "sell" a certain person on a certain behavior. As long as I feel that what I am selling has integrity, I enjoy doing marketing work. the financial services company I worked for had integrity (they made it through all the financial crises in the past years unscathed by scandal) and the products I was selling were ones that helped people to save for retirement, buy a house or put their kids through college. The job was intellectually stimulating for several years and I enjoyed the people I worked with. For the most part, they were smart and kind. But, one day I realized that I didn't want any of the things that I was selling. Why was I sitting in an office with artificial light and recirculated air for 8-10 hours a day, 5 days a week doing a job that was satisfactory but not altogether satisfying so that I could retire at some point in the future and do what makes me happy? Why not choose to do what fulfills me now and have no need to "retire"?
This realization came on the heels of starting a Hatha yoga practice at a studio in my neighborhood at the time (Monkey Yoga Shala). 14 years ago, walking through my neighborhood in Oakland I looked up at the yoga studio that I had passed numerous times before and decided to go in. My first class, I was hooked. I started going once a week, then twice a week, then I quit going to the gym and just went to yoga. I started yoga out of curiosity, out of a desire to try something different. What I found changed my life. Not in the mind-blowing way that we perhaps look for but by weaving itself into every facet of my life. I practice yoga so I can practice life more consciously.
It did not happen over night but over years. I continued to work in corporate marketing but enrolled in the Advanced Studies/Teacher Training program at the Iyengar Yoga Institute of San Francisco. I woke up at 5:30am to do my yoga/meditation practice, worked 9-5 and then went to class three nights a week from 6-9pm. I did not resent this schedule. In fact I thrived. This is when my Yoga Sadhana truly began. Everything in my life began to be about yoga, aimed at yoga, for yoga. It changed my relationship to my body. My body became a strong, beautiful friend that I could rely on, not punish. My relationships changed as I became more patient and content with myself. But, it transformed me so much that I knew I could not continue on in my corporate job. I decided to leave in six months, giving myself time to save money and get my annual bonus. I spent that six months making my supportive boss look good and taking care of the people that I managed. When I announced I was leaving the company to focus more on yoga I was greeted with enthusiasm, support and love from everyone I worked with. From those I knew well to higher-ups that I had only seen across the table in meetings. It was clear I was on the right path.
I took the leap into becoming a full-time yoga teacher in 2007 and became a Certified Iyengar Yoga Teacher in 2011. I continue to do marketing consulting for select organizations and people because it is a skill that I enjoy sharing. I continue my yoga studies with my teachers, Manouso Manos and Victoria Austin. I have had the honor of studying at the Ramamani Iyengar Memorial Yoga Institute (RIMYI) in Pune, India three times 2010, 2012, 2014. In 2010 and 2012 I was blessed to have the experience of being in a class with B.K.S. Iyengar himself as he trained his granddaughter Abhijata. I am saddened by his passing in August of 2014 and of his daughter Geeta Iyengar’s passing in December 2018, but I am excited about the legacy of yoga they left for the future. I feel the immense responsibility for passing on this boon to humanity and welcome the challenge!
I began a Vipassana (insight) meditation practice at almost the same time as my yoga practice in the year 2000. I went on my first retreat soon after. It was 10 days of silent meditation while kayaking in the islands of Baja with Mark Coleman who teaches nature meditation. While I committed most of my spiritual practice to developing asana and pranayama, I kept coming back to seated meditation and felt called at least once a year to go on a retreat. My meditation practice changed when I met Tsokyni Rinpoche in 2015 and took refuge as a Buddhist. Since then, I have deepened my understanding and knowledge of Tibetan Vajrayana and Dzogchen teachings.
In the summer of 2018 I decided to take a transformational leap and leave my job and home in the Bay Area behind. After 20 years in the Bay Area, I have landed on the Big Island of Hawaii in the Hilo area. I am teaching at my dear friend Kimberly’s studio Iyengar Yoga Hawaii and building connection to the land, the people and spirit of Aloha. Come visit me! See the retreat page.